………”what do you want me to do? I do love you I just can’t prove it not being with you…there’s gonna be a another guy who will steal you away and thatll be there for you, and that’s what I didn’t want” -person who shal not be named right now…eh em… Cleavland.
What the fuck.
What are you trying to tell me? That you let me go because you couldn’t hold on any longer? Because you couldn’t let me be the one to move on first? You couldn’t deal with me hurting you, so you thought it’d be easier just to have me hold on ‘till I figured it out? Ya, great thinking. Awesome really. You fed me lies over and over again. Starting with I LOVE YOU. You found my weakest point, and used it against me. You did it over and over again. You made promises you knew you wouldn’t be able to keep. ” this isn’t going to work”, how many times did you have to tell me that? Not that many times, yet you kept doing it. I get it, I got it. Why keep telling me? That’s not what I wanted. I just wanted our friendship to last. I was stupid. Stupid for ever thinking that you actually wanted me, you only wanted me when you couldn’t have me, and the instant that changed you threw it all away. I hate you. That’s a lie. I wish I could hate you the way I love you. It’s because of you that I can never love someone, that’s just a word that follows me around, haunting me. I don’t even know what the word means anymore, and I never want to feel it inside me again. I hate you for what you did to me, I hate you for the two years we had together. I hate you for loving me, and getting me to love you back. Two years…two years too late.
I’m saying maybe right now you need to work on you and I need to work on me.
-One Tree Hill” —fuck you. let’s work on this together, you’re going to come back again.
- gilmore girls” —
my fucking life.
thank god for gilmore girls (: FAVORITE SHOW EVER
I wish it could be simple. I wish it could be giving up something as easy as pop, or candy or something like everyone else. I wish it could be something good, like going to church, or doing better in school. It’s none of that. It has to do with my heart, and people. My new years resolution is to move on from every bad thing that’s happened to me. To let old people go, and let new people in. I need to find a way to let the one person who I held onto the most just slip away. I’m so sick of holding on to unnecessary baggage. I’m letting it all go. I’m finally going to learn to move on. That, that’s my new years resolution.
Here’s to the new friends I made..
Here’s to the friends that stayed when things got tough..
Here’s to the ‘friends’ that walked out of my life..
Here’s to the bitches who talked behind my back..
Here’s to my amazing new and old followers..
Here’s to the hateful anons..
And here’s to myself to make 2011 even better than 2010..
Women by Charles Bukowski (via frickinxaxkels)
ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUTHORS (: