“Stop right there; don’t say another word. I truly don’t want to hear what you have to say. We’re through. You fucked it up. Everything was perfect, until you decided it wasn’t.”
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December 2010
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two years,
………”what do you want me to do? I do love you I just can’t prove it not being with you…there’s gonna be a another guy who will steal you away and thatll be there for you, and that’s what I didn’t want” -person who shal not be named right now…eh em… Cleavland.
What the fuck.
What are you trying to tell me? That you let me go because you couldn’t hold on any longer? Because you couldn’t let me be the one to move on first? You couldn’t deal with me hurting you, so you thought it’d be easier just to have me hold on ‘till I figured it out? Ya, great thinking. Awesome really. You fed me lies over and over again. Starting with I LOVE YOU. You found my weakest point, and used it against me. You did it over and over again. You made promises you knew you wouldn’t be able to keep. ” this isn’t going to work”, how many times did you have to tell me that? Not that many times, yet you kept doing it. I get it, I got it. Why keep telling me? That’s not what I wanted. I just wanted our friendship to last. I was stupid. Stupid for ever thinking that you actually wanted me, you only wanted me when you couldn’t have me, and the instant that changed you threw it all away. I hate you. That’s a lie. I wish I could hate you the way I love you. It’s because of you that I can never love someone, that’s just a word that follows me around, haunting me. I don’t even know what the word means anymore, and I never want to feel it inside me again. I hate you for what you did to me, I hate you for the two years we had together. I hate you for loving me, and getting me to love you back. Two years…two years too late.
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I’m saying maybe right now you need to work on you and I need to work on me.
-One Tree Hill
” —fuck you. let’s work on this together, you’re going to come back again.
“Don’t blame someone for drinking too much alcohol, acting crazy, even flirt sometimes and for changing. The most common reason behind this is that they’re just trying to recapture the feeling when they were still in love with someone. For it was a different feeling, not just any kind of happiness we could actually find every day.”
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“Of course I want you to come back. I want you back more than you can imagine. But please don’t.. because I’d end it with him for you in a millisecond. I hate it, but its true. I’ll end whatever I have just to have you.”
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“You make up excuses for why he never comes around. And I know he’s going to show up saying he misses you, but honestly who’s fault is that? Your address is the same and your phone numbers haven’t changed. There’s just no excuse for it this time.”
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“People don’t stay in your life forever. Maybe he came in, you loved him, you learned from him, and now there’s nothing more for him to teach you. Maybe your time with him is done. Maybe it’s really time to just let him go. If he has more to teach you, he’ll end up coming back. When you feel like talking to him, look up a new word that describes him in an asshole-ish manner. Keep a list.”
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“it was him not fighting for me. i gave him the ultimatum and he let me walk away. i didn’t want a life separate from him, and thats all he could give me. it’s like he’s driving a car and i just want to be in the passenger seat. he’s locked the door and i have to hold onto the bumper. i am not even asking him to open the door for me, just leave it unlocked and say come in, but he didn’t do that. so i am hanging on to the bumper and life goes on. and the car goes on and i get really badly bruised and i’m hitting potholes and it hurts, it really hurts. so yesterday i had to let go of the bumper because it hurts too much.
- gilmore girls” —
- gilmore girls” —
my fucking life.
thank god for gilmore girls (: FAVORITE SHOW EVER
New Years Resolution.
I wish it could be simple. I wish it could be giving up something as easy as pop, or candy or something like everyone else. I wish it could be something good, like going to church, or doing better in school. It’s none of that. It has to do with my heart, and people. My new years resolution is to move on from every bad thing that’s happened to me. To let old people go, and let new people in. I need to find a way to let the one person who I held onto the most just slip away. I’m so sick of holding on to unnecessary baggage. I’m letting it all go. I’m finally going to learn to move on. That, that’s my new years resolution.
Here's to year 2010
Here’s to the new friends I made..
Here’s to the friends that stayed when things got tough..
Here’s to the ‘friends’ that walked out of my life..
Here’s to the bitches who talked behind my back..
Here’s to my amazing new and old followers..
Here’s to the hateful anons..
And here’s to myself to make 2011 even better than 2010..
That moment you're home alone and you hear a noise in your house and you accept the fact that you're going to die.
“That’s the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink. If something bad happens, you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens, you drink in order to celebrate; & if nothing happens, you drink in order to make something happen.”
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Women by Charles Bukowski (via frickinxaxkels)
ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUTHORS (:
